introspect 1
i know not what i intend to acheve by this write up i am doing.. i am even more sue that i am gonna delete this or even worse not even save this piece of junk that i am putting my few minute(atleast) of energy on... well one thing i have been reminding myself all the time and something i have allways heard learned people say is that its perfectly fine to imitate and imbibe, in more refined words inspire from ideas and works of other. the thought accured me when i went through the blog of a friend of mine. its my beleif that there is no person without a flaw, and hence it is fine to be a man of flaws. what is importanct for you to realize the flaws in your lie and work towards getting out of it and more thatn that one shouldnt be surprised and upset when after a 50 years of efforts to overcome their flaws they find they are left with more flaws than they started with. think what would have happened hadnt yo utaken up hte exercise.i allways took a hisitent and apprehensive step towards planning my life because rarely have nething happened as per my plans. but now when i look at it from an analytic stand point i realize things wouldnt have been worse that what it were hadnt i did that little amount of planning in life.
someone recently showed me a list of things he would want to do in his life, which made me ask what the hell i am doing with my life!! For gods sake look at me and what i have done to myself, i am an overwieght by over a 20 kilos, leading what the physicians call a suicidal life style, spending 90% of my life in the office, that too realizing a high BP and cholesterol backed with a family history of heart ailments is all set to suck the health out of me. which again leads me to the feeiling.. are these negetives thought doing me any good.. well aint this what they call introspection. well so be it. i am done with the part of introspection and now let me think what i am gonna do about all this.
let me too look at things i want out of like, ofcourse this list of things would change, should chang with my epereinces in life, but i would like to see more things added to this list that be deleted
1. at this point for some reason all my ambitions seemd to be linked with making the best of money i could and that too in hte minimum time i could.
2. when i look ahead i see my dads loans to repay, my sister marriage coming up in another 5 years, moeny is definitely my priority.
3. i have allways wonder how well i am spoiling my career. I come a long way, unfortunately down from where i started. people i start off with are atleast making a good 4 to 5 times what i am making today, well if that is a way to judge your growth. i ned to find out a way to get out of that.
4. management seems to be the most attractive career path ahead of me in terms of lucrative behaviour as well as job requirements. ISB has been in my mind for a while, but then someoneesplained me the stupidity in hte investment. need to do a more religious research on the options.
5. well i dont seem to have the time to even plan things.. here i go to attend to another of my daily chores.. or is this just an excuse.. let me doscuss that once i am back.
posted by Mahesh Vijayamohanan @ 10:13 PM
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